Once Upon a Starlight
by Diane Browne
Angela pressed her face against the glass of the toy store window. She looked longingly at the chocolate-coloured doll with the tight black curls, dressed in a white blouse and frilly red skirt. Oh how she wanted that doll! But she knew that her parents couldn’t afford to buy it for her.
It was almost Christmas. The store windows were draped with coloured paper streamers and shiny bits of tinsel. The sidewalk stalls had balloons, starlights and paper Christmas hats. The fruit vendors sat with their piles of pineapples, paw paws, oranges and shiny tangerines. And there was a tall Christmas tree in the park that shone with many coloured lights at night.
Angela sighed as she turned away from the store window. Pushing her way through the crowds of excited Christmas shoppers, she tried to console herself. She could not have the doll, but she did have a paper bag with three starlights. They were not little starlights, but giant ones. Old Miss Hannah, who lived nearby, had given them to her because Angela had helped her to set up her stall.
When Angela got home her father was sitting on the verandah. He had been out of work for some time and he looked very sad. Every day he went looking for work, but he couldn’t find any. Her mother, who was sitting just inside the front door, was busy sewing; she was making clothes to sell to the stores. Angela’s little sister, Carol, ran to meet her.
“What did you buy, Angela?” she called out when she saw the paper bag.
Angela showed her family the starlights and explained how she had got them. “I am going to light one each night until Christmas,” she declared
“I’m glad that you will have something for Christmas,” said her mother, with a sigh “There is no extra money for presents this year. The money I will get for this sewing will only be enough to buy us some food. I don’t even know if we will have enough to share with Miss Hannah. I know she is alone, and we always invite her to eat with us on Christmas Day ...but things have become so expensive. This has been a hard year.”
Angela’s father looked even more sad.
As soon as it was dark Angela went into the yard to light her first starlight. Carol watched from the front steps and squeezed her little hands together in excitement.
Angela struck a match and placed it against the tip of the long starlight. A gentle Christmas breeze dimmed the flame of the match. Then as it flared again the starlight sparkled and crackled. Angela held it firmly as hundreds of little lights darted everywhere, like stars dancing away in the night.
“Swing it around, Angela!” shouted Carol. “Make the lights spin!”
Angela was just about to twirl the starlight in wide circles over her head, when she stopped. She blinked; she could not believe her eyes. There sitting on the top of the starlight was a little old lady, no bigger than a doctor bird. Her head was tied in a red and yellow bandana cloth, and she had on a bandana apron over a long blue cotton dress. Her black face was wrinkled and her eyes twinkled as brightly as the starlight sparkling around her.
Angela’s heart pounded with fright.
“Don’t be afraid,” said the little old lady. “I am the Auntie of the Starlight. It was kind of you to help miss Hannah to set up her stall, and I have come to reward you. Each evening as you light a starlight I will appear, and each time you may have a wish for Christmas. What is your first wish, Angela?”
Angela trembled with anticipation as she thought about the doll in the store window. Then she remembered her father and how sad he had looked. I still have two other wishes, she said to herself. Maybe I can use this one for Daddy.
“Can I wish for something for somebody else?” she asked in a whisper.
“Of course,” replied the Auntie of the Starlight. “ They are your wishes. You can use them in any way that you want.”
“Then I wish that Daddy could get a job,” said Angela breathlessly.
The old lady tossed her head, showering sparkles of light all over the place. “You may have your wish,” she said.
And before Angela could thank her, the starlight spluttered, and the old lady disappeared with the last little shimmering lights.
“Oh, Angela, that was so pretty!” cried Carol.
“Did you see her too?” said Angela.
“See who?” asked Carol. “What are you talking about?”
“Oh, nothing,” replied Angela, deciding that she must have imagined the whole thing. The next day while Angela’s father went to look for work as usual, Angela helped her mother with the sewing.
“I’m glad you can hem so well, Angela,” her mother said. “We must finish these today as tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I am depending on the money I get for them. Though, how I will mange to fill my next order, I don’t know. This old sewing machine is giving trouble and I’m sure it will cost a lot to fix it. I suppose I will just have to sew everything by hand. But that will take so long that maybe the store will give the orders to someone else.
“They wouldn’t do that, Mummy,” said Angela reassuringly, though, to tell the truth, she was not at all sure that they wouldn’t.
When Angela’s father came home that evening he looked quite different. He laughed happily as he exclaimed, “I’ve got a job! It’s at a new factory which needed extra help for Christmas, and if I work well the job will be permanent.”
Angela’s mother smiled. “I’m so glad,” she said, “Angela needs shoes to got to school next term and my sewing machine needs fixing.”
“Well,” replied her father, “I’ll have enough money for shoes, but that machine is too old now. They don’t even have parts for it anymore. You really need a new one, but I’ll have to work for some time before we can think of that.”
“Yes, I know ,” her mother said. “Anyway, now we can invite Miss Hannah to have dinner with us on Christmas Day.”
Suddenly Angela realized that her first wish had come true. Perhaps she had not imagined the little old lady after all. Perhaps she would really see the Auntie of the Starlight again.
Angela sat on the front steps waiting for it to get dark. At last the orange sun melted into the deep blue sky. Carol clapped her hands with excitement while Angela lit the second starlight. The breeze rustled through the leaves of the Christmas Bush as the starlight crackled and sparkled. And then just as before, there on its tip sat the Auntie of the Starlight.
“Daddy got a job,” said Angela.
“Of course he did,” replied the old lady. “Now what is your wish this time?”
And just as Angela thought about the doll in the store window again, she remembered that her mother’s sewing machine was not working. Well, she said to herself, I still have my third wish. I’ll use that for the doll.
“If you don’t mind,” she said to the old lady, “I’d like to use this wish for somebody else also.”
“I don’t mind,” replied the Auntie of the Starlight. “They are your wishes.”
“Okay, then,” said Angela, “I’d like a sewing machine for Mummy.”
The old lady tossed her head, showering sparkles of light all over the place. “You may have your wish,” she replied.
“Thank you,” said Angela, and just as before, the starlight spluttered and the little old lady disappeared with the last little shimmering lights.
Early next morning, Angela, her mother and Carol delivered the finished clothes to the store. Then they went to buy the food for Christmas Day. They bought some sorrel and ginger in the market to make the sorrel drink; they got sweet potatoes from a lady by the side of the road. Angela’s mother said that even a small ham was too expensive this year, so they bought a nice big chicken instead. She said Miss Hannah would probably bring a small Christmas pudding as usual. It would be a great Christmas after all.
That evening, just as Angela’s mother was crushing the ginger and Angela and Carol were picking the red sorrel, their father came home.
“I have a surprise for you,” he said to Angela’s mother with a big smile on his face. “One of the men at the factory knows a man who sells sewing machines. He will let us have one since I’m working, and I can pay him a little each week from my salary. And meanwhile you will have something to use.”
There was a happy light in her mother’s eyes, and her father’s face shone with pride because once again he could help his family. Angela knew she had used her first two wishes well, and now on Christmas Eve she would make her final wish.
She could not stay still. She kept running out into the yard to look at the sky. Slowly, oh so slowly, it changed from a pale blue to gray streaked with pink. At last it was dark.
The two girls stood in the front yard. Angela took a box of matches from her pocket to light the starlight.
Suddenly Carol said, “Please, Angela, can I hold the starlight this time?”
“No, you can’t!” replied Angela quickly. “You are too little. It might burn you.”
“I’m big enough. I’ll be careful,” cried Carol. “I never got a chance to hold one before. Please, Angela, please! Let me hold it for just a little.”
Angela thought about the doll. Then she looked at her sister. Her little body was trembling with excitement and her eyes pleaded for this chance.
“All right,” sighed Angela, “ but just for a little. You must give it back to me when I tell you.”
“Yes, I will. Thank you Angela,” Carol whispered.
After all, Angela said to herself, it is long enough for both of us to have a turn at holding it. I will still have a chance to see the Auntie of the Starlight.
The starlight burst into glittering lights as Carol held it tightly, her face full of delight. The sparks flew in all directions, piercing the darkness like shooting stars, then disappearing like peenie wallies in the night.
“This is the most beautiful starlight!” laughed Carol. “Just look at it, Angela!”
Angela thought that this starlight did look even more brilliant than the others. Then, just as she was about to take it from Carol, the starlight suddenly spluttered, and with a hissing sound the lights all died away. The Christmas breeze was now quite strong and Angela wondered if it had blown out the starlight.
“Is it finished already?” asked Carol anxiously.
“It can’t be,” replied Angela sharply, as she took it and looked at it carefully. But the starlight was already black and twisted. Angela fought back the tears as she struck match after match, trying to light it. But nothing happened.
“I’m sorry, Angela,” said Carol softly. “You didn’t get your turn.”
Angela couldn’t bear to make Carol feel sad, so she tried to smile bravely, as she said, “It’s all right. I had two already - remember?”
“Then you aren’t vexed?” Carol said with relief.
“No, of course not,” Angela replied, as she gave her sister a quick hug. “And this one was especially pretty, just for you.” Carol’s hesitant smile, which became brighter as she realized that it really was all right, made Angela feel that perhaps it was better after all, to have made her little sister happy.
She was very disappointed about the doll but she was determined not to show it, as the two girls got their clothes ready for church on Christmas morning.
The first little rays of daylight were just slipping through the thin curtains at the windows when Angela turned over and rubbed her eyes. She stretched and yawned, and then she felt something at the bottom of her bed. She sat up and rubbed her eyes again; and there, sitting on the old chenille spread, was the doll with the white blouse and the red frilly skirt. I must be dreaming, Angela thought. But as she ran her hand over the tight black curls and the smooth chocolate-coloured face, she knew she was awake. It was not a dream at all.
“Mummy, Daddy!” she called.
Carol, who was awake by now, was jumping up and down in her excitement. She had discovered another doll in the folds of the spread. It was a baby doll, just the right size for her.
“Thank you, Mummy and Daddy,” cried Angela as her parents appeared at the door. “How did you know just what I wanted?”
“Did you put those dolls there?” their father asked their mother, laughing.
“It’s a surprise to me,” replied their mother with a secret smile.
And as Angela hugged her parents, she thought she saw something darting along a shaft of light and out through the window; something as small as a doctor bird, except that there was a flash of red and yellow like bandana cloth.
I wonder if it really could be her? said Angela to herself with a little smile. I wonder if the Auntie of the Starlight really was here?
from The Big River and Other Stories
Children’s Writers Circle, 1983
The Happiness Dress
A parcel came for Carolyne.
“It has lots of pretty stamps on it,” said Carolyne. “Where is it from?”
“From Auntie Inez, Daddy’s other sister in the Caribbean,” said Mummy.
“I wonder what’s in it,” said Carolyne.
Everybody helped Carolyne open the parcel.
“It’s a dress!” exclaimed Carolyne. The dress had bright, red, pink, yellow and orange flowers all over it.
“What a dress!” exclaimed Mummy with a frown.
Grandma sighed. “Inez, has no idea about the clothes people wear here.”
“It’s so wrong,” groaned Auntie Joan.
“Can I try it on?” asked Carolyne.
“Yes,” said Mummy, “but it won’t do”
Carolyne tried on the dress in front of her mirror. She thought she looked like a flower herself – red, pink, yellow and orange.
She showed the others. She turned around and around, and the skirt swirled, red, pink, yellow and orange.
“I like it!” she exclaimed, laughing.
“It won’t do,” said Mummy. “It looks like a market. Too bright!”
“It won’t do,” said Grandma. “It looks like a jungle. Too crowded!”
“It won’t do,” added Auntie Joan. “It looks like a carnival. Too loud!”
“But I like it!” Carolyne declared
Daddy looked up from his newspaper, but he didn’t say anything.
“But where can you wear it?” said Mummy. “Not shopping with me.”
“Not to church with me,” said Grandma.
“Not anywhere with me,” added Auntie Joan. “You could wear it at home.”
“But I want to wear it out. It makes me feel happy,” said Carolyne, and she looked as if she might cry. “At least, it made me feel happy till you all said what you said.”
Then you can wear it out with me,” said Daddy.
“What!” exclaimed Mummy with a frown. “Where to?”
“We are going out for a walk right now,” declared Daddy. “Come, Caroline!” he said, taking her hand.
Carolyne skipped along beside Daddy.
“That’s a pretty dress, Carolyne,” said their neighbour, Mrs. McTavish, looking through her window. “It makes me think of the beautiful flowers in my last garden.”
“That’s a pretty dress, Carolyne,” said Mr. Singh at the grocery shop. “It makes me think of all the wonderful birds and plants in the park near the place where I used to live.”
“That’s a pretty dress, Carolyne,” said Mrs. Thomas at the pastry shop. “It makes me think of having carnival all the time.”
Everywhere people smiled at Carolyne and said, “What a pretty dress!”
When they got home, Daddy said, “We had a great walk!”
“Everybody liked my dress,” said Carolyne. “It made them feel happy too. It’s my happiness dress.”
Grandma sighed. “People say what they don’t mean.”
“All the people?” Carolyne asked.
“Those people don’t know anything,” said Carolyne’s Mummy.
“All the people?” Carolyne asked again.
“They think it’s all right because you are a Caribbean person,” Auntie Joan added.
“But you are the ones from the Caribbean,” said Carolyne. “I was born here, and I like the dress. It’s a happiness dress.”
Daddy smiled and said, “I think Carolyne’s dress is something like your hat with the purple feathers on it, Mother.” Carolyne didn’t know if he liked that hat.
“Or like the lace curtains you bought, dear,” he said to Mummy. Carolyne knew he didn’t like the curtains.
“Like your blue shoes, Joan!” Carolyne knew he didn’t like the blue shoes either.
They all sighed.
Suddenly Carolyne had a thought. She said, “Do you have a happiness anything, Daddy?”
Daddy laughed and said, “You, Carolyne! You are my happiness daughter!”
Carolyne just grinned. She knew that.
© Diane Browne